Tuesday, 31 May 2011

And poem...

Poems kicked start the new semester. Poem, as I’ve said earlier, is widely considered as something that is “not cool” (at least in my own understanding. Or is it only me that think like that??) . That’s the reason I quit poem.  As Mr.Derick announced that we gonna doing poem for this semester, we are like, okay…so, poem? Another florish and girlish literature thing.
                Nevertheless, trust me, everyone has something “jiwang” inside. So this lesson is a good chance to dig out the thing inside you. Look at Victor, the seemingly coolest guy in my class that always comes out with great sentences, filthy words and wearing like Eminem, sitting at the back of the class. He did write a poem eventually, though it was still full of filthy dictions, beginning with “Life is a shit”. His style. But he read the poem with emotion and even with repeative structure.
                For me, poem is winding of sentences where you could easily written it down  in a simple sentences instead. Poem makes things complicated. Poets are people who indulge in the world of themselves, writing rhetoric things that only can be understood by themselves. I know this narrow viewing of poets is accusing and incorrect and sum things out with just a word, and was a kind of discrimination. Sorry about that and I will brainwashing myself in this few days. Some political and satirical poems are cool.I shouldn’t say all TV programmes are bad for children ‘coz they are different. I do love reading some types of poems.
                I love those short and catchy poems full of biting satire as they are always exciting .Especially when they refer to something I am familiar with. No doubt that readers always seek the feeling of commonness and belonging from their readings. In reading poem, my length of patience is 15 lines. 
Poems longer than 15 lines with twisted meaning and rare vocabs are a no-no for me. And so with classical poems  with ancient dictions like “thou”,”thy”,” thee”.When I saw these, I  click the X box (close page).What’s the purpose of troubling yourself? I’d had enough of brain-juice-squeezing during Chemistry class and don’t want to bother myself with things like this during leisure time. Ah, finally I reach the main point: poem is for pleasure, not pressure.
                Finally words for poetry : Why can’t you just state it clearly?! You little twisted thing!
                Urged by the scary sentimental music sponsored by  Mick, I eventually came out a poem in the class. Paradoxically, it seemed like a romantic piece. In the end, I am a poet that always contradicting myself :p

In the dizziness, you are sitting behind me
I remember
In the yellow classroom
The hanging fan’s spinning clumsily
Stirring the sweaty air
The moving lips of Cikgu Abdullah. With moustache lining around it
Vibrate, through the atmosphere that is crawling in damp silence

The classroom shrink
Inches by inches
                Classroom
                Classroo
                Classro
                Classr
                Class
                (Darkness)

I nod, nod
Slipping a bubble of sweat down my cheek
My long hair
     My light blue school uniform
                My grey white shoes
And absorbed herself into my shock
A BS ORB

Among the wetness and blurriness
The most vivid feeling
Is you, sitting behind me

Palm on your mouth, you giggle, kicking my chair
!!!
Cikgu Abdullah’s mumble turns clear
Parameswara melarikan diri ke Batam sebelum sampai di Singapura
And then he ran and ran
Finally he reached
Here in the History class   

:')            

Friday, 13 May 2011

Sarawak!!!

...Sarawak? Q&A
1. We ( West Malaysian) need a passport to go there ?
    You don't need one.=.=It's still Malaysia what.But for non-Sarawakian, you will get a Pas Lawatan   whereby you are only permitted to enter and remain in Sarawak for 90 days. It's a common thing that many of us feel East Malaysia is so different from West Malaysia, and we store a lot of peculiar thinking about this piece of land that is riched with natural resources and its indigenous culture.When I was young,I felt pity and unfair for East Malaysian as most of the goods they bought are more expensive than in Peninsula.Double standard.The most I noticed is the price of magazines;e.g RM1.00 in W.M,RM1.20 in E.M.Besides,the Independence Day is not unified as it is not yet the day Sabah and Sarawak regained their freedom.Regarding this,in recent years, many have suggested the true Independence Day that we should be celebrated supposed to be on 16 September,same as Malaysia Day.This is a difficult decision to make isn't? Which date to choose?
2.Can I eat chewing gum there?
   C'mon dude.This is not Singapore.Malaysian don't come out with weird rules.
3.Are there any pantang larang? e.g Cannot take photos of something.Or I can't talk about something...Or cannot point my finger to the Hornbill bird(maybe it's a kind of disrespect?)?
   This maybe apply to some rural area.But not in Kuching (One of the biggest cities in Malaysia).Orang Kuching wear just like us,living a modern life,with nice buildings peppered on wide landscape.Just about 10 minutes I am in Kuching,I saw lighting with hornbill shape.I wonder why is hornbill the symbol of Sarawak. Are they origin from here? Or the population here is larger than any other places in the world? (When walking on the street in Sawarak,will I be bumped by hornbill flying over the sky?)

p/s: One of the funniest lame joke that I've ever heard is about Sarawak.I heard it from the reality show Showdown 2010.It's from one of the member of Feasible Crew.This was what he said: (in Mandarin,with passion) "I want to prove that we Sarawakian don't live on tree,even if we live on tree,we get on it by lift!!"(the scene is edited to show them lifted up o the TV screen) Maybe the guy didn't say it as a joke, but a patriotic proclamation, but it turns out so funny that I even called my best friend just after that to tell this joke!
This is my first day in Kuching,also the first time in East Malaysia.Just now on the way to Victor's home we ate the Golo Mee, it tastes a bit like Wantan Mee, and it was nice!!Sedaaap!Haha, more to discover on tomorrow!!

Wednesday, 11 May 2011

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Prior to the beginning of a new chapter of life,I would keep reminding myself that I must start writing diary,so that all the memories I had are well recorded in lines.Undeniably,our brain is not enough to store all those scattered memories, and I doubt if my storage capacity is only 10 GB.I've got bad memories but I've always know the importance of memory,whether they are of good one or the other way round.So, I need pen and paper,but before I pick up my pen and write at least something,the internet age has come.That's why I am writing this thing here. I guess this can explain my purpose  of writing blog.

This is not my first blog.The first one is (recalling...mind loading..buffering..)..during Form 3,where now I bet I won't write that sort of blog again.Everyone can guess.Form 3 is the period of "jiwang",but different from others,my jiwang is in poem form(my god...so embarrassed).Yes..I did write POEM!!That time I was quite indulged in literature, particularly poems, novels and short stories(san3wen2)(wei1xing2xiao3shuo1).But I only managed to write a few poems and articles, with the reason "no inspiration".(where later I discovered from experience that there is no such thing as "no inspiration",that's more of laziness that stops me from writing).

The blog was never active,one of the reasons is I myself not sure whether to tell my friends that I have a blog.In this century, writing a blog is not something you can show off or proud of, and I found it hard to utter a word about this.So that's it.My first blog,died in my uncertainty and laziness.It's now abandoned somewhere in the Internet, because its boss had forgotten the password to rescue it out.Poor little blog,I even can't remember its name.(See? I got bad memory.)In chinese tradition, a proper name after death is important,and it signifies dignity.It's the basis right of a corpse.And my blog.........I am sorry,here I build a grave for all the happiness you had brought to be, and this makes me grow up.Thanks you,with love, huili.

Next is the birth of this blog.It's on Sunday afternoon,McD Centrepoint,and on that week there got a chemistry and physics test, so it would be somewhere around end of March and early April.I never planned it, (it's not that it's a pre-marital sex=.=),it came so sudden, thanks to the accessibility of internet and boredom, which are the two main element of a typical college life.

Regarding the name.It's an adaptation from Hujan's album 1,2,3 GO, which originally is...ops!exactly the same!..I thought the album is of something like "1,2,3 Rock" "Check Check Rock", so this name would be an adaptation.But it turns out the same.=.= I should change it sometime later, when I manage to think of other suitable name:')

That's all for today.Welcome to my world.

*Hujan's album:-Check Check Rock Rock, 1,2,3 Go! (2007)

p/s: A writer which I had forgotten her name once said "Writing diary is exposing yourself in the daylight".Can I analyse it as "writing diary>>feel unsecure"?